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Chapter 3: The School Counselor Knew More Than I Did

I read the email twice.

Then I opened the attachment.

It was a summary of a conversation between Lily and her school counselor, Mrs. Collins.

The first paragraph was ordinary.

The second wasn't.

Lily has expressed persistent anxiety about being unwanted in her current household. She has described limiting her food intake, avoiding shared spaces, and feeling afraid to ask her stepmother for basic necessities.

I felt sick.

But the next sentence stopped me completely.

She also reported being told that her father could lose custody of her if she continued causing problems.

I looked up.

Tara was standing beside the kitchen island.

"Who sent that?"" she asked.

"Lily's counselor.""

Tara's face changed.

Only for a second.

Then she recovered.

"She's been talking to the counselor about family issues?""

"Apparently.""

"That's inappropriate.""

"She's twelve. That's what counselors are there for.""

Tara walked toward me.

"Marcus, you need to understand something. Lily has a habit of misunderstanding conversations.""

"Did you tell her I could lose custody of her?""

Tara looked away.

"I told her there were consequences if she continued creating conflict.""

"What consequences?""

"I don't remember the exact words.""

I held up my phone.

"She told her counselor she was afraid you'd make me lose custody.""

Tara sighed.

"Children exaggerate.""

I put the phone down.

"Then we'll talk to Mrs. Collins together.""

Tara's expression tightened.

"Absolutely not.""

"Why?""

"Because I refuse to sit in a room while some school employee accuses me of abusing a child.""

I stared at her.

"Nobody has accused you of anything. They asked for a conversation.""

"Same thing.""

She grabbed her purse.

"I'm taking Emma shopping.""

I didn't stop her.

Instead, I called the counselor.

Mrs. Collins answered after two rings.

"Mr. Bennett? Thank you for calling.""

"Please tell me what Lily said.""

There was a pause.

"Marcus, I want to be careful with how I explain this. Lily has been coming to my office regularly for several weeks.""

"Several weeks?""

"Yes.""

I sat down.

"Why wasn't I informed?""

"Initially, she asked to speak with someone because she was having trouble concentrating in class. Over time, she began discussing things happening at home.""

"What things?""

Mrs. Collins spoke gently.

"She says she is afraid of upsetting her stepmother. She often skips lunch because she doesn't want to appear greedy. She has also told me that she doesn't believe she has the same rights in your home as your stepdaughter.""

I rubbed my forehead.

"Does she seem afraid of Tara?""

"She becomes visibly anxious when discussing her. But there's something else.""

"What?""

"Last week, Lily asked me whether children could be sent away to foster care if their parents decided they were too expensive.""

I closed my eyes.

"Did she say why?""

"She said someone had told her that children who aren't wanted eventually have to go somewhere else.""

My throat tightened.

"Did she name that person?""

"Not at first.""

"And now?""

"Yesterday, she did.""

I waited.

Mrs. Collins lowered her voice.

"She said your wife told her that you were already considering sending her away.""

I stared at the wall.

"That's not true.""

"I understand.""

"Mrs. Collins, I would never do that.""

"I believe you, Mr. Bennett. But Lily doesn't seem certain.""

That hurt more than anything Tara had said.

I had spent two years telling my daughter she was home.

And somehow, she still believed she could be thrown out.

"Can I come in tomorrow?"" I asked.

"Of course. There's one more thing I'd like you to know.""

"What?""

"During our conversation yesterday, Lily showed me a photograph.""

"What photograph?""

"She said it was something she found in a drawer at home. It appeared to be a document with her name on it.""

I sat straighter.

"What kind of document?""

"I couldn't read the entire thing, but Lily seemed frightened by it. She said she thought your wife was planning something.""

My fingers tightened around the phone.

"What did it say?""

Mrs. Collins hesitated.

"I believe it mentioned guardianship.""

The call ended a few minutes later.

I remained at the kitchen table.

Guardianship.

The word didn't make sense.

I was Lily's biological father. Her mother had died. There was no custody dispute. There was no reason for anyone to be preparing guardianship documents.

Unless someone had been planning something without telling me.

I went upstairs to Lily's bedroom.

She was sitting on the floor, organizing her books.

"Hey, sweetheart.""

She looked up.

"Hi, Dad.""

I sat beside her.

"Your counselor told me you've been worried about some things.""

Her shoulders stiffened.

"Are you mad?""

"No.""

"Is she going to tell Tara?""

"No. She wanted me to understand how you've been feeling.""

Lily nodded.

I waited before asking my next question.

"She mentioned a document you showed her.""

Lily stopped moving.

"What document?""

"Something with your name on it. Something about guardianship.""

She stared at the carpet.

Then she reached under her bed and pulled out a blue folder.

"I found this in Tara's desk.""

I opened it.

There were several printed pages.

The first appeared to be a draft legal document.

It mentioned temporary guardianship arrangements and a proposed change in residential care.

I read the name at the top.

Lily Bennett.

My daughter.

The document appeared to have been prepared by a family law office.

I turned to the second page.

There was a handwritten note in the margin.

Marcus must agree before the end of the year.

My pulse quickened.

"What is this?""

Lily shook her head.

"I don't know.""

"Where exactly did you find it?""

"In the little drawer beside Tara's desk. I was looking for the scissors.""

"Did you tell her you found it?""

She shook her head.

"She was talking on the phone when I put it back.""

"What did she say?""

Lily looked toward the bedroom door.

"She said you would eventually agree once you understood how much easier everything would be.""

I stared at the document.

Then I saw another name.

Emma Bennett.

And beneath it, a reference to a proposed guardian.

Tara.

I couldn't understand why my wife would be preparing documents involving Lily's care without telling me.

I photographed every page and placed the originals back in the folder.

"Thank you for showing me this.""

"Are you going to send me away?""

I turned toward her.

"No.""

"Even if Tara wants you to?""

I held her face gently between my hands.

"Nobody gets to make that decision behind your back. And nobody gets to convince you that you don't belong here.""

She nodded.

Then she asked something else.

"Can I ask you something?""

"Anything.""

"If I have to leave this house, can I take Mom's pictures?""

My heart broke.

"You're not leaving.""

She looked down.

"Okay.""

But her voice said she didn't believe me.

That evening, Tara returned from shopping with Emma.

She was carrying several bags.

Emma ran upstairs to show off her new jacket.

Tara placed her keys on the counter.

"Did you speak to the school counselor?""

"Yes.""

Her eyes narrowed.

"What did she say?""

"She told me Lily is scared.""

Tara laughed without humor.

"Of course she is. You've taught her that every little problem is a tragedy.""

I placed my phone on the counter.

"I found the folder in your desk.""

For the first time that evening, Tara went completely still.

"What folder?""

"The guardianship documents.""

Her face turned pale.

Then she reached for her glass of water.

"Marcus, I can explain.""

"Please do.""

She looked toward the stairs.

Then back at me.

"It was only an option.""

"An option for what?""

She swallowed.

"To make things easier for everyone.""

I felt my stomach drop.

"By sending my daughter somewhere else?""

"Don't make it sound like that.""

"Then what should I call it?""

Tara stepped closer.

"Marcus, you have no idea how difficult things have become. Lily needs more attention than I can give her. Emma is suffering too. I thought maybe a temporary arrangement—"

"No.""

"You haven't even heard me out.""

"I heard enough.""

She looked at me with an expression I couldn't recognize.

Then she said something that made the room go cold.

"You're acting as if Lily is the only child who matters. But you don't know what she's been doing when you're not home.""

I stared at her.

"What has she been doing?""

Tara reached into her purse and pulled out her phone.

She opened a photograph.

It showed Lily standing beside the kitchen counter, holding a small brown envelope.

Tara turned the screen toward me.

"She stole something from my desk.""

I looked closer.

Then I recognized the handwriting on the envelope.

It was Rachel's.

My late wife's handwriting.

And Tara had written a message beneath the photograph.

Ask your daughter what she found inside.

I looked up.

"Where is that envelope now?""

Tara smiled faintly.

For the first time, I realized she wasn't afraid of me discovering the guardianship documents.

She was afraid of what might be inside that envelope.

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And upstairs, behind Lily's closed bedroom door, I heard my daughter scream:

"DAD! PLEASE COME HERE!""

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